Saturday, January 29, 2011

Your Own Worst Enemy

People really don't realize they are their own worst enemy. I have a friend who always wishes she lived in a big city or famous or was someone else, someone better, thus leaving herself feeling empty inside. It's so sad because she's putting herself in a prison. A prison she made that isn't allowing her to be happy with the life she has. I've seen this happen to sooo many people, including myself, and I think everyone should just be happy with who they are and their life. If you put yourself into this prison, you'll never be fully satisfied with life and when you die, it'll be in vain..

Hot Stuff

So last week I got with a very sweet boy named Israel. It was all fun and games until about two days ago. Suddenly, both of my serious ex boyfriends decided they want me back. One of them, I would take in a heart beat; I've been waiting for him since he left. I know you're supposed to listen to your heart, but really, I would have to deal with my decision every single day and everything I told Israel would have been a lie. When I said I wouldn't leave, I meant it. But of course I didn't see this coming. Had I, I would've never gotten with the poor boy in the first place! Isaiah saw me today. He found me, he was actually looking. When I hugged him, I didn't wanna let go and his scent creeped up my nostrils and stayed there for hours. I can still smell him.. I felt all giddy like the good old days but it's too late now. What perplexes me most is what would happen if I chose Daniel or Isaiah or Israel? How different would my life be? I wish I could see each future, but I can't and so I'm stuck in the realm of "what if".